41th, 42th, 43th days without sharon (Hot, Evening)

I am having a real mixed feeling now... I really do not know what to do... Lets start with the previous days first.

On friday, I argue with my mom due to going church and cell group so i ask Sharon to accompany me abit longer after cell and before cell and she did... During that time after cell, we kissed and she did not push me away so I continue on and stuff... I hope that I do not hurt her feelings or stuff because we are not together but to really tell the truth. It was not very great or what but it is because with her which it makes it fantastic. I really miss those day and i hope she feels the same too. That feeling just keep playing in my head and i could not forget it.

Saturday is nothing much just like normal, i thought i would need to fetch her for guitar practice so i woke up earlier and sms her then only i know they cancel it. Anyway, i was not angry or what but I somehow hope that she would tell me so that I do not need to keep waiting whether do I need to fetch anot.

Sunday, everything went well till I knew she went for make up as a model. I feel jealous because it is a guy who fetch her there and is a guy who make up for her. Although i know that guy quite well too but I just do not know why I get jealous. CAN SOME1 TEACH ME HOW TO NOT BE JEALOUS SO EASILY?? I appreciate it very much if anyone of you can teach me. I also get to know that POS will be having practice everyday. Now I will also begin my 502 project and I only have a feel days just hope that i have enough time. I think I will not be blogging so much till the 502 project ends