Friday, November 27, 2009

Just for my special someone

Well...it has been sometimes i have blog and now some1 requested me to. So I will blog about it. Start of from emerge. It was tiring to me where i can hardly cope with it but i learnt something new, i get new friends, I manage to understand life more. More importantly I found you.

Last friday, We went to wong kok to celebrate my baby birthday. She dint expect us to suprise her there. It started of with us preparing cakes, then Ian went to spy on the condition. After that we came out with a plan(sounds like war or battle :P). So in the end we light up the cake, Ian, Miah and KB went it 1st after she started to make a wish I came in with a bigger cake. I can see her stunt till she could not finish her food. After that we join them but I cannot eat due to POS. A while later I joined the POS group to practice and prepare to perform.

It come down to Wednesday which is another surprise. We did a fake CG to celebrate for her again but this time we add more spice which is CG multiply. After when she heard that, she started to cry. It started off with some people sharing then me, mine was quite long but it all come from my heart and i manage to make Ian drop tears!! Yay,when I know Ian tears drop and he is not faking it,I was so happy because so many of us did not manage to make him cry but I did. Okay back to story, when she started sharing she cried even more (My heart ache during that time). After that Ian move to prayer when i see her cried I really wanted to stop the prank but I must not give in if not all my members effort will be waste. After praying, Her sis come out with justin with her cake and we started singing. Her wish was CG will not multiply and it come true because we prank her :P when she knows it, she started staring at me with the look like she was cheated and also she start pinching me but it is all worth it.

Besides the celebration, I went out with her and we spend our time together. It is memorable to me because I did many things where I never did it in public before. It really took alot of courage in me to make the 1st move to hold her. When I did, I was telling myself is not so hard after all and i started to get comfortable with it. Besides that I want to let everyone know she is mine :P. I also had a fun time with her in the car but we reach our destination and we need to get down. Then is her celebration time.[go back to 2nd paragraph] (I wont reveal what fun or what we did, she knows, I know good enough, people need privacy too) :)

Sometimes I am lost,
Sometimes I am sad,
Sometimes I am ill,
Sometimes I may fail.

It doesnt matter now,
As long as you are with me,
I dont care if i fail,lost, ill, or sad,
Because you are the cure to all of that.

How you feel matters to me,
How you treat me matters to me,
Because all your feelings can affect me,
Not only a short while,
It will be forever.

To the world you may be someone
but to Me you are the world.

P.S: I Love You Baby

I made a promise to you that I will blog before you go and here it is. Just want to let you know how much you mean to me..

Monday, November 9, 2009

Randomness

Well I suddenly have the urge to blog but do not know what to blog about...cause i have many things in mind...XD

Start of with my busy life, I am starting to slack from college activities like what i said...compare to last time which i spend most of the time in college, I now rather spend time at home to do what? SLEEP...I have been very busy and when I have time I would like to sleep...

Other than that, I guess I am just a failure in Love? I really notice all my love life was a failure. I guess the problem is with me not the girl. Besides that, is very hurting for me too. Sometimes i really do not know what to do. Am I expecting too much sometimes? When I see other people having fun with their partners anywhere and anytime it makes me feel so envy with them. I never had that kind of feeling before except for friends where I had the most fun with. Everytime when I talk about it, I will have flashback about the memories that i have been thorugh and it makes me feel very down and not wanting to talk about it. I really want to give up on my love life already. I really had enough. They always say they understand but what is it that you understand? And when things happen how did we end up? I already know that the day will come and always tell my partners about it and they dont believe and they will just say 1 word SORRY. Sorry cannot cure the scar inside my heart and it makes both of us suffer. I do not know what to say anymore. Well i guess thats all from me.


P.S: My only wish is to get some1 that really understands and will be close to me, only one. Is that too much? I am really tired of relationships even sometimes friendships. I miss my highschool friends but we are from different college T.T