KCBA youth camp (part 3)

Pictures speak a thousand words and here it is what i normally do during free time in the camp. Wen Sern's Product.Got so tired in the end. Anyway next post D2YC youth camp.

KCBA youth camp (part2)

Me and my candle night dinner partner, Samantha

My candle night dinner partner, Samantha(that night itself)

Ravin, Me, Tuck Long (What we do best during free time)

Candle night dinner food (vegetarian)

So this is part 2, there is a night in the camp where we need to find a date for candle night dinner. Some committees and me were ready to play which we let other committee choose our partner but suddenly Jessy said we cannot do that and we need to pick the left over one for our partner. First person to get partner was ShinD then Leonie (my sis), follow by tuck long after that I lost the sequence but mine was during water war. Proud to have Sam as my partner though. We begin chit chatting after we sat down and we click easily. I get to know that she is a big fan of DBSK and she is a good swimmer too( I will never wan to swim with her). After that night we still keep in touch till now and we sms everyday 24/7(abit too much) was just making it sound so much. I have some pictures of me doing some dance move but is with quan wei, sob. Anyway after that i rush back home early to prepare my next camp which is D2YC. I will state it in the new post.

KCBA youth camp (part1)

Okay I know I have not been publishing post for sometime so here is the update...
Suppose to be with this group but this year i am the committee, too bad

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My pillow during camp!!!(cute le)


Well this is KCBA camp...haha
Been working hard for all the time...
The first day of camp was hectic, me and tuck long need to go to Giant to buy Watermelon and 500ml bottle water for participants...I never get to interact around, no!!!!
Everything went fine...this is the picture that I took during camp. No worries, there is more to come. I love the pillow so much especially the hello kitty one. I been using it for all my naps and not ashame of it. Okay time for part 2

Off for 2 weeks

Today I will be going to Klang for a camp till Sunday, then i will need to rush to KL for another camp. Sigh so many camps and i forgot to mention, I am a organizing committee for both camps ( hope I can last long enough). I will miss my home the most sob. All of a sudden, I do not feel like going to all these camp, I feel like staying at home doing what I want but a promise is a promise and I will never neglect my responsibilities. So no matter how not willingly I am or how sick I become, I will and I must finish the task.

Yesterday night, I chatted with my her(my crush) a while. She asked me to sleep early but i just come online so we start chatting and she told me that she will be shifting hostel on the 19th of december, I asked her whether she need my help but she answer and say I thought you got camp to handle??? Then I answer her there is a will there is a way. ^^

Anyway need to prepare for camps now. Will be leaving in 1 hours time. Going to miss my home.

Practice

Today after the exam 1 whole group went to pyramid's redbox to sing. There are few good singers like Justin, Jason and May. I guess guys with J can sing well? hahaha. Anyway, I did not intend to go but Justin force me and say if you want to learn how to sing, you need to go and start something. So i ended up going and slowly sing in the end. Not to say my voice was the worst there I guess, as i could not sing. I will practice as much as possible to improve. By the way i got 2 teachers, May and Justin. I really thank them so much to sacrifice their time to teach me sing as I do not have any background of singing so it will be tough for them to teach me.

What makes me want to be a better singer out of a sudden??? I do have a purpose but not telling it out. Anyway it is 3am and I am still practicing(started singing since 1 am) as since is late and people will not be able to hear me sing. I am going back to practice again will be uploading next post after camp maybe or after my next practice at redbox.

Nightmare(dream)

This morning I have a dream. Yup it is a nightmare. The dream seem so real to me that my body actually react to the dream. Well here is how the story goes......

When I woke up in the morning, I change from my room to my parents room to sleep. As you guys parents room are the master bedroom so is more comfortable.( This is where the dream starts). I got up and saw through my parents room window, I saw a bunch of people taking old lady who leaves opposite my house to a big truck. I feel weird so I observed and i notice that they are having gun and forcing that old lady to get it the truck.( I forgot some part of the story). Suddenly, I saw the same bunch of people kidnapping the girl that I love away. I quickly chase that truck and to get her back but I cannot reach it. I quickly rush back home and call the police then i call some people on my phone list to help. I even tell my dad about this incident but my dad take his own sweet time to do things as if is not his problem(I dint tell him that the girl i love was kidnap). I got frustrated and call other people which is Mr queck( my ex bm tuition teacher). He ask me to get the police again and he will be right over. When I hang up, that gang of people call and they told me : " You will not be able to call the police now, We have capture your best friend which is an IT wizard to cut off all connections to the helpline and if you try to seek help, we will treat your lover in a "GOOD" condition." After this conversation, they hang up.Of course the 1st thing that come into my mind that they will treat her is gang rape and torture. So i quickly ran down and ask my father for help but my dad just will not care and take his meal. I ran out from the house and try finding her and keep shouting but I just have no idea where they bring her to. I was so depress that i cried and thinking of what they will do to her.

This is where I woke up from my dream. Why did I say it seem so real to me?? First the kidnappers kidnap the people I know and when I woke up, I feel terrible pain in my throat and my eyes are watery. I also sms her when I woke up when i saw her reply then i went back to sleep. I feel like I cannot lose her and will do anything to get her back but the point is she is not even my girlfriend. Anyway this still gives me goosebumps, and it also motivate me to be stronger so that i can protect the 1 I love.

Sudden feeling of Fear (depressing mood)

See how happy they are ( we woke up so early just to celebrate for them, 6am le)
So many presents....and she is not touch at all
This is not how the way you a cut cake Sharon
Wish and wish and wish ....
Woke jeremy up in the morning(stupid lock) if not sure sabo you
Wishing time!!!!

Happy Birthday Sharon and Jeremy!!!!

Okay so i start to feel fear in me in my studies and also the feel of depression. Like I told some of my friends, I can somehow feel J emotion and i just do not know how. When she feel uncomfortable, I will feel it too. I try to not think about her, try not to see her at all but the feeling is just too strong, too strong till I cannot take it. What should I do??? Since the past 3 months I been helping her secretly and she does not know anything about it(thanks to my friends who help me and did not tell her anything about it) but this time it gone worst. I know by doing this, it will affect our relationship but for her future it will definitely help her. Maybe there is some other alternative that I should try??? Should I tell her that i have been helping her secretly all these while???

This is the first time that I actually worried about my studies. Something really got into me and i feel pressure. My holidays will not be holidays too. I guess I need time to rest. I am planing to have a part of my memory lost. WHO wants to join this mission??? At least there is someone when i think of makes me feel slightly better but both our relationship has long way to go and if i really want to get into this relationship, we both really need to put effort.(she knows about me and I knows about her).
Anyway really got to study now.


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