Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Happy or should i say satisfied???

Well, why is it so?? Because today someone finally did something which she will never do and confront a person and settle about their conflicts. Most importantly, they are now friends again.

Another thing is today I actually ask some1 to take over my post when i just cant be there to solve things. I just want to tell them that I am sorry but i really need my time now. This is due to the previous few post maybe?? haha... just hope that she continue growing up, she will be 1 successful person in the future.

Michelle Tan Lee Shern (hope i got the shern spell correctly) I would wan to wish you happy birthday. Although is abit late but better late than never.

The new generation is always taking over, what you cannot do, they might be able to do it.
So train them properly and they might be able to achieve what you want to achieve and you will be satisfied that they are able to do it.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Maturity

Today, I actually outgrown my parents in many ways...
Why, today the house alarm rang and is very annoying and disturbing not only us but the neighbours as well.

I 1st asked my dad to off the main power of the house electricity but my dad just do not want to listen and he say he is confirm that it will not work. Then my uncle came and tried to off it and it works...if my dad listen to me earlier, he would have save many troubles from bugging his friends to my uncle.

Other than that, I also help my mom to make jelly/agar-agar which is in a big amount and then I settle my own dinner outside cause my parents and had some Indian dinner to attend.

I just suddenly feel not happy and satisfied because does age really matter to everything??? Why just cant they accept that sometimes age does not matter, sometimes that younger people are much mature and smarter than them.Well i guess i will end it here.

I just hope that 1 day the world will change that age does not matter.

P.S : Work hard and do not care what people thinks about you, as long you did your best and never give up, its good enough.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Feelings

I just do not understand why I am feeling like this. I somehow feel lonely and depress. I am always fighting with my heart and feeling. In a way, I am having 2 heart or 2 me. 1 of me is my sixth sense, the other 1 of me is me my reality self which always doing my best to make a difference. Okay, to tell you that till now my sixth sense never once goes wrong.

So everytime I am always fighting with my sixth sense, to prove that I can change that situation but i never once succeeded in doing so. Everytime I failed to prove my sixth sense wrong, the more i lose my confidence. Do you know the feeling where you always work hard to change something but everytime you do it you failed?? that is the feeling and it is not only once i have been going through this since I was form 2.

I am mentally tired. I have a dreams of my own which I want to achieve. Maybe I should be selfish and care for myself but not others.


Anyway thats all for the emo part. Yesterday I manage to not to say master the skill but know how to do it and when I do worngly I know what is it. I manage to do 2 skills properly. 1st is my front tuck, I manage to tuck with my hand open @@. 2nd is my flic flac, I can feel it already which means I will know whether I am doing correctly or wrong. Time to aim even higher!!!!


Should I put my blog to private???

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Sometimes the truth isnt good enough

Okay...erm I do not know how to start blogging for this post because many things had happen in my life and I am the 1 watching it going through everything. AND sometimes it sucks to know so many things.

Reason of why it sucks knowing so many.
1) I am not a superman, i cant solve so many things. Sometimes I just could not solve the problem.
2) I cannot always be there to solve the problem, I have my own too.
3) People will tend to ask you whether you know such things and ask you more.
4) What if both are your friends and you care for who will you help??
5) If it involves my friends, it will make me worried

As some of you guys know or experience before, I do not really care what happen to me. I will just keep it in my heart and maybe go to 1 corner and be sad to myself but If you harm someone I really loved and cared, I will make you pay 10 times or maybe 100 times worst they what they suffer. I bet the 1's that suffer before knows because I torture people mentally and physically.

Now back to the topic.
Why do i say so??? because sometimes the truth cannot be reveal. It will sometimes hurt other people either physically or mentally. If is physically, it will heal but what if it is mentally??? It will haunt that person for life. Why I am saying so because I find myself having a disorder since I was a childhood and I wanted to heal myself but the more I study psychology the more depress I am because I know that my disorder could not be heal. So sometimes we just could not reveal the truth to people so that they can live their happy life.

This is not related to the topic
Well I just hope that she knows that I love her, I really do and I am willing to let go some things in my life just to be with her.









Sometimes the truth isnt good enough,
Sometimes people deserves more,
Sometimes people deserves to have their faith rewarded.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Random

Enjoy when you can, and endure when you must.
-Johann Wolfgang von Goethe-


Well i guess this is very suitable for my condition now.