Randomness

Well I suddenly have the urge to blog but do not know what to blog about...cause i have many things in mind...XD

Start of with my busy life, I am starting to slack from college activities like what i said...compare to last time which i spend most of the time in college, I now rather spend time at home to do what? SLEEP...I have been very busy and when I have time I would like to sleep...

Other than that, I guess I am just a failure in Love? I really notice all my love life was a failure. I guess the problem is with me not the girl. Besides that, is very hurting for me too. Sometimes i really do not know what to do. Am I expecting too much sometimes? When I see other people having fun with their partners anywhere and anytime it makes me feel so envy with them. I never had that kind of feeling before except for friends where I had the most fun with. Everytime when I talk about it, I will have flashback about the memories that i have been thorugh and it makes me feel very down and not wanting to talk about it. I really want to give up on my love life already. I really had enough. They always say they understand but what is it that you understand? And when things happen how did we end up? I already know that the day will come and always tell my partners about it and they dont believe and they will just say 1 word SORRY. Sorry cannot cure the scar inside my heart and it makes both of us suffer. I do not know what to say anymore. Well i guess thats all from me.


P.S: My only wish is to get some1 that really understands and will be close to me, only one. Is that too much? I am really tired of relationships even sometimes friendships. I miss my highschool friends but we are from different college T.T